Trying Not To Think

Sweet sixteen and full of dreams,
I try not to think about
Our first time,
How scared but safe I felt
Being held in your arms,
I try not to think
About our goodbyes,
My heart has been broken
Shattered and scattered in the night,
And you came along
To hold me tight and clear
Away my falling tear,
I try not to think
About all my secrets
Of which only you know,
I try not to think
Of those late nights laughing,
Or those hours just talking,
I try not to think
About our goodbyes,
I try not to think
About the day he came into life,
The day I became a mother
And you became a father,
I try not to think
About all the nights
Spent scared and alone,
Wondering if decisions were right
If I had the strength to continue on,
I try not to think
About the days you were gone
And the few days you were here,
I try not to think
About our goodbyes,
I try not to remember
How easy it is to love
And how easily my heart breaks,
I try not to think
About you when I decide
On if I will stay or go,
I try not to think
About being in your arms,
I try not to think
I try not to feel
I try to pretend
I do not have to say goodbye,
I try to act as if you
Never touched my soul
Never were part of my life,
I try not to remember
I try not to think